Forward.

There are two reasons I chose my blog theme to be what hapens next….

Mainly, because I am focusing on my dream/ambition to write plays which people want to produce and audiences want to see. When writing you are constantly asking, what happens next? Everything you write should be moving the story ahead. I love that part, and as someone who loves to write dialogue, and can linger on exploration, I remind myself of that lesson a lot.

What happens next, is also where I am at this point in my life. Another unexpected change, and one I was not prepared for. I know it’s time to look ahead, and stop studying the rear view mirror. Yes, there are so many lessons to be learned, and my goodness my emotional growth has been tremendous. One might even say, I needed to go through that. Must admit though, I would like to welcome change through positive and heart filling experiences, not so many of the gut wrenching ones. (I say that knowing how fortunate I am compared to some.)

Letting go is challenging. I broke a favorite glass by accident about a month ago, and I still look for it when I open the kitchen cabinet. We can attach easily and at a deeper level than we know.

Dates go by or loom ahead. Disappointments take place where plans lived. Realism can dull dreams, and the word change becomes a haunted rollarcoaster with surprises you do not enjoy. It’s hard work and I believe absolutely everyone is going through the same thing because of a change, in some form.

I wish we could be patient, compassinate and had ears that truly listened. I wish stress was not as deceiving as it is, so that you become blinded and can’t see the destruction and ultimate loss you are creating. I wish we would learn and grow as easily as we shut down. I wish we would love as freely and deeply as we feel and pay attention to fear.

In writing this, I guess these are the wishes I have for me. This is what I learned, the hard way. Through the things I had to say goodbye to, I send much love and gratitude. Now we see what happens next………….